I started my xanga page when I was in the 5th grade, just preparing to go to middles school. Now, I'm a junior in high school, taking college classes, and being told to "research" on colleges that I might be interested in. I know I have to make some decisions and I have to make them soon, but I don't really think I want to. I can graduate high school this year if I really want to, but I need the extra time to think things over. I don't know if college is right for me. I want to travel and experience things first hand. Write about my "adventures," and take photos of things people wouldn't believe. I want to spend the rest of my life living in different countries, learning things I could possibly learn in school.. On the other hand, part of me really does want to go to college. There are so many things I want to gain. I want to learn about the things I choose, and not what the board of education believes I must learn. But I don't know what I'd study. There are so many things that capture my attention. If I pick study plan 'A' I might regret not picking plans 'B' or 'C.' The counslers keep buzzing in my ear with little whispers about the future and my life plan. I get angry and don't know what to say to them. Have you had similar dilemmas? Though college wasn't right for you, then ended up liking it better than you would have ever imagined? Or did you run after your fantasies? |